Loufa's exfoliating thoughts

Every day I go to dance for hours with girls that are no bigger then a tooth pick. Girls who come to a 6 am nine hour rehearsal with full make up and hair done. Girls who talk badly about each of the team members when they have flaws in their own lives, just the same as the rest of us. It sickens me how judgmental a person can be.


It's hard to be around such harsh personality's with out it rubbing off on you. I don't consider my self a big or chunky girl, but when i start comparing my self with the skin and bones on my team its not hard to feel fat.


These last two weeks i went on a diet because i wanted to look good in the costumes for my dance concert coming up. I didn't notice a difference in the circumference of my waste or in the jiggle in my legs, but i did notice a difference in me. Suddenly i was all about looks and trying to be like everyone else. I was scared that if i didn't loose those three pounds i would be made fun of by my peers. Suddenly, i was no longer confident. I was becoming the girl that couldn't go around with out her make up on. I was the girl obsessing over the number of calories she ate. I was becoming the very girl that i had loathed so much.


A quote came into my head that once changed my life. "I like me for the way i am"...I've started saying this quote in my head everyday before i leave for school, every time i can't find something amazing to wear, every time i see that "perfect" girl coming down the hall. I like to think of my sister and the amazing example she is to me. I've never seen her change for someone else. She has always stayed strong in what she believes. So thank you Ash Bash, you really are a beacon of light in this some times dark world. you're the greatest sister a girl could ask for.

I'm also grateful for the words of Elder Eyring in the last session of General Conference. It goes something along the lines of....those who never give up find that god never gave up. It opens up a whole other way of looking at things, or at least i think so.

Today, I ate a big juicy burger with fries and a malt! diets are so not worth it:)